hmmm...juz came back from arshu hse den now secretly using my sis laptop hope she doesnt cum back suddenly haiz so sad com spoil smmore must secretly use theres alot of tinks like coming my way lahs my depression seems to be back again i dun feel like goin gentin lahs but i promised n its booked oready hmmm..everyday living seems to be a torture i feel like dying feelings of every actions remind me of smtink dunno wat nxt yr gonna be like lahs everyday like carn study oni goin out n out rahs so sian at home but i seriously missed my bed i hadnt slept on my bed for like 6 days first two days was arshu n ju hse den was sailing camp den arshu hse yst sailing camp was fun didnt regret goin but the first day was scary everyday had noises second day suppose to thon budden too tired den yup had a nice day but my team was the worse team coz it carn cooperate i wished i was in ju team smbod was so irritatin lahs carn say hu its bad my team almost won for kayating but laura team won in the end tat one really pulled me down lahs plus the acting but overall it was fun